(When I published this I was feeling pretty down as you will read. Because of that I didn’t add any tags or categories, so few even saw this which is why I’m re-posting. It’s been ten days since I wrote this and I’m doing ever so much better.)
When I began blogging, especially on “depressionsgift.com”, I promised to be honest, to let you in on some situations as they were happening. This is one such occasion.
These past twenty-four hours have been a roller coaster ride-although mostly down with only an occasional up.There has been a couple of on-going situations that have been very stressful. Mostly because they involve people I love deeply. I even took a nap I was so overwhelmed. That is extremely uncommon for me.
During my devotions this morning, I pleaded with God (whined might be a better word) about why he hadn’t answered certain of my prayers yet. I reminded him of Ephesians 3:20 that says that “God is able to do more than we can ever even think of according to the power that works in us”. So I prayed, “OK, Lord if I can’t even think of it, how can I ask for it? So I asked the Holy Spirit to intercede for me and bring these “things I can’t even imagine” to God on my behalf. I feel like the day has been spent on my knees even if it were only in my head.I am exhausted.
It’s getting late and I feel so blessed to report that one of those prayers has been answered. It’s the one that needed to be answered soon. Now if you think I’m making the point that it was all my hard praying that made the difference, I’m not. Actually, the older I get the less I’m sure of why certain prayers get answered and others don’t. That doesn’t bother me at all to admit that. It means I’m finally learning to trust more, with or without answers.
I’m learning to keep praying no matter what. Or maybe I’m learning patience. At this point, I couldn’t tell you. I’m just glad I’m getting ready to go to bed. As Scarlett O’Hara said, “After all, tomorrow is another day.”